Tired

I first want to thank everyone who has read and participated in the "Self-Inflicted Blog" this week. I sincerely appreciate the support and enjoy having a public forum for my musings. I would appreciate any feedback, both good and bad, that anyone has to offer. And if you have opinion that you would like to share, please email comments to my personal email. If you dont have my personal email then I would appreciate anything you have to say to be directed to rnemsn@gmail.com Thank You!

Something I am really tired of is racism. And long before I was banned from the Rainbow Coalition web site, I was tired of Jesse Jackson. And I will be hanged if he hasn't somehow gotten back in the news.

And his stunt, this time, is newsworthy; unlike most of his hate-mongering and division-inducing rhetoric. When a supposed reverend so eloquently says " i want to cut his nuts off", thats news. I feel that the main point of the story should be how Jesse can call himself a reverend. Or how anyone can call someone with his history a reverend. Aren't there Biblical guidelines to be adhered to? Can anyone be a reverend? Do I even know what reverend means? Does anyone understand the title? Is nothing truly sacred?

And why does this bring up the issue of racism again? Wasn't this a case of a black man accusing/ speaking ill of another black man? And isn't the race of the people they are speaking of also black? So why racism?

First of all it is about racism because everyone's first response, including mine, was "what if a white man had said this?" We all wonder what would have happened if a white minister had said the same, exact, word-for-word thing but we do not take the time to ponder why that is our initial thought. We just go with our own knee-jerk reaction to something a so-called civil rights activist speaks into an unknowingly hot mike during a commercial break.

Also, I think that so many of us have been accustomed to Jesse, as well as many other black activists, trying to make us feel bad that we were born white, that we are automatically defensive of anything he says, even if it is not pertaining to white people. We have grown tired of being blamed for things we haven't done as well as being profiled and stereotyped. No one with any intelligence, white or black, wishes to be treated in such manner, but it does not excuse our actions in these instances. It does, however, make things a little more understandable.

I do not understand racism personally. I am thankful that racism isn't one of my personal struggles and that I am not ignorant enough to dislike or judge someone by the color of their skin. But I do understand what causes racism. Even when it is disguised by the media and activists as well as everyday ordinary people.

I am so tired of racism and wish it would go away. But with this years political climate being what it is, i seriouslly doubt it. And history tells us that racsim has been here a long, long time and probably will be around alot longer.

If only we would all see each other as individuals based on our character and merit. For too long we have been in too much of a hurry to stop and think about people being people. Its just too convenient to generalize.

If only we had a true man of God to lead us all, regardless of race. If only our activist wouldn't hide behind titles and our media focused more on the points of what were really important instead of what is edgy and provocative. Of course that would the responsibilty on us as individuals to turn away from scandal and glitz, and focus our individual priorities on things that are truly important.



Time, space, and my daughter won't allow me to delve much deeper into this at the moment. Thanks for reading and I apologize for the abrupt enidng.